Thankfulness

Since it is Thanksgiving, it would seem appropriate that I would be writing about what I am thankful for this year. However, I think I would be writing this post regardless of the day that is showing up on the calendar.

Recently, we have been shocked with the news that our friend, Aidyn, along with her family, has been placed in a very difficult battle. She was recently diagnosed with a tumor in her spinal column. The doctors were pretty certain it is cancer.

For the last two days, we along with hundreds of others have been consumed with prayer on behalf of our friend. Today, saying we are "thankful", seems like a huge understatement. After a long surgery, in which the tumor was much more easily accessed than what they initially thought, and now that said tumor has the possibility of being benign, we are filled with much more than just thankfulness. We are filled with thankfulness, joy, and humility. We are filled with feelings of comfort and love. We are filled with feelings, that I cannot express properly through words.

We are thankful on this day that, even though He has billions of children, our God heard us and is answering our prayers. We are thankful for a God that has plans for us that are good, that prosper us, and give us a hope and a future. We are thankful for a God that comforts us, and even though we are faced with tragedy, He gives us a sense of peace that goes beyond all understanding. He is a God that holds us close when we are anxious, scared, and sad. Like a Dad who holds onto a frightened child. We are thankful for a God that seeks us out for a relationship with Him, and longs to grow us to the conformity of His son.

Saying I am thankful for my family and friends, and that I am thankful for our health just doesn't seem like quite enough. Although I am extremely thankful for these things, I am also keenly aware of our God's abundance. Abundant love, abundant grace, abundant peace, abundant comfort, abundant power, abundant righteousness, abundant ability to hear His children when they call out His name. He is a God of abundance, and he gives abundantly to His children.

I tell you the truth, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.--John 16 : 23-24

Father God, our joy is complete.

Thank you.
Have a Happy Thanksgiving!

Sometimes it Takes a Good Run to Get Your Head Screwed on Right

Life is full of struggles. Some are huge, while others just seem huge at first, then with twenty- twenty-hind-sight, they seem pretty small. Some struggles you will never forget. They grow you into who you are today. Other struggles you totally forget, and something will trigger a memory from that time. During that recollection you'll think to yourself, "Wow! I totally forgot all about that. I really thought it was the end of the world when "xyz" was going on." I never want to struggle in vain, I always want to grow from pain, but I hope this time of struggle is one I can wipe clean from my memory slate.

As I ran today, I spent time trying to figure out why I continue to stumble over a very small rock in my road. I came to realize that I have been holding onto this situation with a white knuckle grip. I kept asking God to please help me. I want to move on so badly. He pressed upon my heart that I have never let go of the situation. He can't fix something I won't surrender to Him completely. All this time I have been feeling like, "Well, if I just do this one thing," and, "I won't let this happen again," and, "I'll just not say this type of thing anymore."

While I don't think that God wants me to sit back and do absolutely nothing about this particular stumbling block, I also know he can't do anything at all until I fully trust and am at peace with the fact that He is in control. Ultimately, I can only do so much. After that it's up to Him. No matter how much I want a particular result to come about, I HAVE to be OK with it not turning out the way I want it to. I have to trust that if God says "No" to me, that it's because He is planning a bigger "Yes" for me later on down the road.

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."--Romans 8:28

Each day when I surrender my life to serve Him for the day, I have to do just that: Surrender. I know that this doesn't sound like rocket science here, but I think I say I would like to work and serve according to God's will, but then I still want to complete my agenda too. There is absolutely no way my agenda can be as wonderful as the one He has already planned out for me way in advance.

"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." --Ephesians 2:10

As I finished my run, I felt such a sense of peace. I feel like I have finally let go of this situation, and I know whatever comes about it is for my good. I know that I have a God that can conquer anything that is set before me. Struggling through something doesn't mean that He isn't there or doesn't care. Quite the opposite. It means He loves me enough to grow me. I can't complete the works He has for me without this growth. I've gotten so used to giving up when things get difficult. I use the excuse that, "It wasn't in His will for this to happen. It's just too hard." I am learning daily that hard work doesn't equal "not meant to be". It means simply, work harder! He's got something for me, but it's going to take some effort, a little sweat, maybe some tears, and a whole bunch of being on my knees before Him.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you."--Jeremiah 29:11-14

I am comforted in the fact that regardless of what happens in this particular situation, He has plans for me, and they are good.

Glory.

Why We Shouldn't Leave Money Lying Around

We had a little head to head with The Girl today. Usually, I don't like to blog about bad behavior. I don't like to give it the attention it was trying to seek out in the first place. But today, The Girl, took it to a whole new level. Since this blog is about preserving my Mommy Memories, I'll let this one story slide on in.

We took the kids to McD's for lunch today so that we could enjoy a different meal at a Mexican chain that the kids won't touch because they are kids, and they haven't discovered all the goodness that Mexican food has to offer them. They are still turned off by the spiciness of it all. Which, hello, is the best part. Hubs and I don't even waste our time or money trying to get them to understand. Instead, we have caved into their incessant whining and will buy them a Happy Meal. Plus, the toy at the end keeps them quiet just that much longer while we enjoy our Mexican goodness.

Well, the toy became a problem. It wouldn't stop making noise. Mostly because The Girl would not stop making it make noise. If you want know anything about me at all, it's that I can't stand repetitive noises. I lose my mind faster than you can shake a stick. So we gave The Girl a warning about the toy. We told her she had to turn it off until we got home, and then she could play with it in the toy room only.

(You've got to love the fact that those free toys are so annoying, and that they are also instantly your child's favorite.)

So, not so surprisingly, The Girl tested out our threat. Normally, I would have given just one more warning, but she was so blatantly testing us, I had no choice. We took the toy away.

Wow. She was mad.

As we got out of the car when we got home, she mumbled something to herself about how she thought her daddy needed to pay her back for that toy. She felt as though he needed to compensate her monetarily for the toy he was now going to keep for the afternoon.

Ya. That sounds like it would totally happen.

Well, as we went inside, she decided to take it a step further. She headed straight up to her daddy's office and grabbed a twenty spot he had laying on his desk . She then marched right back down stairs and told her daddy, "I'll be keeping this until you give me my toy back!" Hubs and I just looked at each other a bit astonished, and then he said, "What?"

She repeated, "Since you took my toy, I am going to take your twenty dollars. I think that's fair."

You know what I think? I think that is one gutsy five year old. I think we have a long road ahead of us in this parenting journey we are on. I also think that, when she was in her room with the door shut after her punishment, I about died laughing.

I am still floored at the thoughts that were going through her little mind when she confronted her father with his money and gave him an ultimatum.

She's braver than I thought.

Heaven help us.

As If Mornings Weren't Hard Enough

It's been a bit difficult around these parts for me during breakfast time. It seems as though my children's finicky eating habits may not fall too far from the tree. Some might call me finicky as well. I even have a hard time watching some types of food get eaten. For example, really juicy meat will send me right over the edge. I also can't stand the look of sausage. Not ground meat or patty sausage, but the link variety. I saw a picture of some link type sausage in a magazine today that was touting some fantastic recipe using sausage. I am sorry, but there is not a talented enough food photographer in the entire world who can make a big old fat piece of link sausage look like something I want to put into my mouth and chew.

Nope.

No way.

Ain't happening.

I am sitting here with heeby jeebies just thinking about it.

Where were we?

Oh yea, food aversions.

So recently, The Girl, has really been, unknowingly, making me sick to my stomach at breakfast. Along with really juicy (read slimy or fatty) meat and link sausage, I can not stand to watch or think about someone eating soggy cereal. And if you want to see me gag, go ahead and drink the milk out of your bowl when your done.

Oh ya, I just gagged a little.

Please do not think that I am judging you for these things if you do them. I clearly understand that I am weird, and am also in the minority. It seems as though most people do like to drink the milk from their bowls after their cereal is gone. Which is why there are actually bowls out there with straws built into them. Also, I know people who choose their breakfast cereal based on the flavor of milk that is left in the bowl when they are done.

Clearly, I am a person with weird food issues. Thankfully, I have learned to deal with them, as well as the rest of the people who have to live with me, even though they get highly annoyed at times.

I'm sure that you have probably guessed that The Girl likes to wait for her cereal to get really soggy, and when she is done getting out the sog, she slurps up all the milk in her bowl.

Oh heavens, I can hardly stand it.

I actually have to leave the room most of the time. I definitely can't watch her eat the sog, and when she tips the bowl to her lips, I usually find something else I need to do away from the kitchen.

I refuse to say anything to her because I know what she is eating is good for her. Also, she really really likes it, and I don't want to ruin that for her.

On the opposite side of the spectrum, The Little Man can't stand to have milk in his cereal. So he eats dry cereal and has a glass of milk for breakfast. Lately, he has been particularly fond of "granola". I call it "granola" because it's actually just oats and honey. Since The Girl has a peanut allergy, and most nuts are processed with peanuts, we don't get granola that contains the yummy stuff in it like almonds, cashews, or walnuts. I guess at that point, the makers of granola have decided that if you don't want nuts, you don't want anything else in your "granola" either. So it's just oats and honey. That's it!

Can you even imagine eating a bowl of oats and honey or "granola", if you wish, without the milk? The Little Man puts his face in a bowl of it almost every morning. Just like a horse with a bag of oats.

My mouth and throat are dry just thinking about it.

Maybe that's why The Girl is slurping down her cereal milk.

She's got sympathy dry mouth.

Outtakes

Christmas card season is upon us. I don't mean that I think they should be sent out yet, but that if I am going to get a card out with a picture, I have to get working on it. Oh sure, I have pictures from all year long that I could choose from, but then I couldn't torture myself with a high pressure photo shoot with the kids. Frankly, that's where all the fun is at. I think kids of photographers have to be the most difficult kids to get pictures of. They are so numb to the camera and being posed, they can't help but just act out. Here's proof of my children's PCS (Photographer's Child Syndrome).

First up, remember the problem I was having with The Little Man not knowing how to smile naturally for pictures these days? Well, we are still dealing with said problem. I realize that this isn't PCS per say, but more just an age thing. Nonetheless, it's still an issue.

Here is saying, "What do you mean I am not smiling normal?"


"You mean like this?"


What? I have to have my eyes open? I need to look at the camera?" What's a natural smile with a just a little teeth?"


Then there is The Girl. She loves the attention of the camera, but gets bored waiting for brother to get the smile right. When The Girl is bored, she gets silly. Today, she also had a problem with blinking from the strobe. So, I got quite a few pictures of this look:


That look is completely natural.

Put the two together and it's pure insanity.

Here we are, I am trying to get a natural smile out of The Little Man by making silly comments.

It really wasn't that funny.


A very natural and cute smile from The Little Man. The Girl is still over doing it by just a smidge.


Nothing here but pure goofiness and disobedience:


More crazy antics:


Here I was focusing on The Little Man. Just trying for both, that natural smile and eye contact. Meanwhile, someone else needed reigning in:


**Sigh**

Thankfully, we still have Halloween candy left over. I whipped out my super duper Mom Skillz, and bribed the heck out of them.

Desperate times call for desperate measures.

They're Baaaack!

I'm not sure if you remember The Little Man's fashion "Must Have's" last winter and early spring? We'll, with the first snow of the season happening yesterday morning, it took about five seconds for them to re-appear.



Both kids were so excited to see the snow. I admit, I thought it was kind of cool to see it too. It's been a long time coming! I can't believe we made it to mid-November before a flake flew. No worries, today was beautiful, and the rest of week promises to be as well. Just a hiccup.

I wonder how much longer the boots and hat will fit?

I'm sure we'll see them all season long.

That's OK, it saves me money on haircuts and shoes.

It's Starting Already

Here we are, at mid-November, and my kids already have Christmas on the brain full-time. I have been getting approximately one or twelve toy magazines A DAY in the mail. The stores have already put out their Toy Book ads in the newspapers. The political ads have been replaced with toy commercials which are even airing during prime time television. It's totally CRAZY.

We had some problems last year with The Little Man having a few meltdowns in stores while we Christmas shopped. Seems as though he couldn't understand the idea of giving to others. He just wanted to get for himself. Since he was only two and a half, we cut him a little slack. I was hoping this year would be different in that he would be more excited about getting gifts for others and surprising them with something special. I have seen this recently with him picking out and giving birthday gifts. Also, I thought since he is a bit older, we might be able to talk about giving and the reason behind it a little bit more rationally this year.

Really, I was hoping that last part wouldn't even have to happen. I was hoping The Little Man had morphed into a new boy this year and we would just give merrily, all season long. Considering he has already compiled a list of what he wants for Christmas this year that is so long he decided (on his own, mind you) that maybe he should split his wish list for Christmas into a Birthday wish list too, I don't think any type of metamorphosis took place. Yes, he now has two lists of "wants", and his birthday is over six months away.

Add that to the conversation we had tonight, and I think a lesson in giving is probably right around the corner:

me: Hey buddy, tomorrow you and Mommy are going shopping at a special toy store to look for Christmas presents.
P: Really! For who?
me: Well, we need to get presents for sister.
P: And who else?
me: Well, we also have our cousins K and C.
P: And who else?
me: Oh, and also cousins J and J and S and B.
P: Ya, and who else?
me: Well, I think that is all who will like that type of toy store, and that is a lot of people in one day.
P: (starts to cry and whine) Momma!
me: What's wrong?
P: How come we won't go shopping for me at that store? I will like the toys there!
me: Well, we can't go shopping for you while you are there. I have to shop for you when you aren't with me so it can be a surprise. Remember, we like our presents to be a surprise?
P: I don't want a surprise. I just want a present.

Have mercy.

I've Got to Be Fair

Now that we are all caught up on The Little Man, it's time to get up to speed with The Girl. I miss having her around everyday. I feel like she is leading a whole other life without me at school, and my heart hurts at the thought. I desperately try to get the details of her day, everyday at pick up, but she just gives the bare minimum, and claims to not really remember the details. I NEED the details. She must think I am a lunatic when I pry.

I am totally a lunatic, and I don't care.

Here's what I know:

1. She adores school. She can't get enough. She talks about it so much I get jealous. I am only slightly teasing with that last comment. She loves all her classmates, and thankfully has not experienced any mean spirited comments or actions that often accompanies school-aged children. I can't even bare to think about what that day will look like. I hope it is still far off.

She was able to eat lunch at school last week because of conference scheduling they had. She could barely wait until that day, and I imagine she probably counted down the minutes until lunch time that day. She was so excited about a thermos bowl I found for her at Super T because that meant she could bring a bowl of soup. The Girl LOVES soup.

As I unpacked her lunch pack from the day I noticed she had barely touched her soup as well as everything else I packed her. I asked her why she didn't eat lunch that day. She claimed they didn't have enough time. I asked her if she may have been talking too much and just didn't get a chance to eat because of all the talking. She grinned a little bit and said that could have been part of why she didn't eat, but mainly they didn't give her enough time. Considering she takes nearly an hour to eat her lunch at home, I am not surprised that she felt rushed with her half hour lunch break at school.

I guess we'll need to work on that at home a little bit before the first grade starts and she falls off the growth chart due to malnutrition.

2. She has taken a small break from her Magic Tree House books. She wanted to try the Life of Faith girl books. I was all for that. They are very similar to the American Girl dolls, but they have the "Faith" element added into their stories. I loved that idea.

We put our name on the wait list for a book at the library so we could get started. She wanted the book about the doll she thought was the prettiest, Violet. So we waited.

And waited.

And waited.

We waited close to four months to get our turn with the story of Violet Travillia. Once we got it, we dove right in.

Can I say, I miss the Magic Tree House books?

I mean, I guess this book is OK, but I find it a bit boring. Violet is a little over the top in the drama department, which I am all about, but...it's a little annoying. Plus, the writing in this book is a bit too much for The Girl. Also, there are a TON of characters, and I for one, am having a hard time keeping everyone straight. All that to say, I do still LOVE the concept, and the over all message of the book is great.

I asked her tonight if she wanted to ditch the book and read a Junior Mystery I got for her instead. She said, "No, I love this book, Mom! Don't you? I mean, it's getting so good!"

Really?

I guess I need to pay closer attention.

Thankfully, she got me up to speed as to what was going on. You would think since I am the one reading the book, I should know what is going on...

3. She is loving gymnastics. She still isn't a stellar gymnast, but she is having fun. That's all that matters anyway. The school that she goes to is really great. I love that they work really hard on coordination and basic gross motor skill with an emphasis in gymnastics. Meaning that they don't just sit and work tricks all night long. They have obstacle courses they work through, and they get to work on things that increase their strength. The gymnastics is worked into those things, but isn't the whole objective. This works well for The Girl because it helps her to be successful through out the practice and she doesn't feel like she is horrible at gymnastics because she didn't learn how to do a certain trick.

The best part about gymnastics is that both kids go at the same time. They are still in their own classes, but this particular school has a classes for each child at the same time!

SCORE.

Just The Facts

Once sister started school, The Little Man and I began to have some serious quality time together. Well, about as quality as you can get when you only have 3 hours and you still have to fit in a work out and a shower. Regardless, I am getting more one on one time with the little guy. It's like I finally am getting that time with him that I had with The Girl when she was first born, and it was just she and I. I could spend the day obsessing over every little detail about her. Now I get to do that with The Little Man except he isn't just a lump with no personality or verbal skills. No, he's got quite the little personality, and the kid will straight talk your ear off if you let him.

Here's a quick rundown of where he's at right now:

1. He loves Sesame Street, Backyardigans, Dora, Diego, and pretty much any T.V. show that is on Noggin. He has always loved T.V. from day one. Seriously, one of his very first words was Dora.

He really loves Sesame Street. He can hardly wait to find out what the "Letter of the Day" and the "Number of the Day" are. He will even run upstairs to tell me what they are when I am in the shower. He really likes to "assign the episode" to someone based off of what the letter or number is. For example, if the letter of the day is "K" then it's a Katelyn day (our cousin) because her name starts with a "K". If the number is 5 then it's The Girl's day because she is five. If he can't come up with a connection for the letter or number of the day right away he will ask me, "Momma, who's day is it?"

2. The Little Man really loves school. He loves it even more when he is assigned a job at school. It's usually the first thing he tells me. "Momma! I was the "Door Holder" today." He likes to go to school, but really doesn't talk about his teachers or classmates at all. In fact on his recent report card (yes, a report card for pres-school) it said that he really didn't have any specific friends, but rather would play with whom ever was next to him. So sweet, but kind of sad too.

3. This kid LOVES music. He can sing many songs, and not just kid songs either. He likes songs that he hears on the radio, and can find a beat instantly. He loves to dance and play air guitar. When we are driving in the car, he will often tell me to, "Turn up the music, Momma!" when I have turned it down so that we can all talk to one another. I love that he would rather sing out loud and play air guitar than chat about nothing with the rest of us.

He also loves to watch himself dance to the music. He often catches his reflection in either a mirror at a store or in a pane of glass, and will stay for a while and watch himself rock out. He also enjoys putting on a dance show for me. His favorite music for dance shows comes from his Backyardigans radio. Here he is in one of the very few videos I have of him with bottoms on...for some reason he also likes to dance without clothes on. I hope he grows out of that little habit...

His style of dance is very alternative, and will likely not land him too many prom dates.

I am fine with that.

4. The Little Man really loves to eat. He is a finicky eater, but loves the food he loves. I am in big trouble come the teen years. I can barely keep up with him right now. He is a chocolate hound, and lover of all things sweet. Recently, I have finally gotten him to eat a few bites of vegetables, and tonight he ate some potatoes without gagging. He isn't too daring when it comes to trying new things, but I know that it will come with time.

5. He loves his Baboo. He also loves his Baboo to be folded a certain way each time he goes to sleep. If it becomes unfolded, he will call for us to come and refold it for him.

I love nothing more than going into his room at 1:30 am and refolding Baboo.

6. He loves to dress himself. He is especially fond of putting on PJ's. Recently, when doing laundry, I realized that I had folded over 9 pairs of pajamas. It had only been six days since I had last done laundry.

7. He is the master of losing stuff. If you have something you never want to see again, give it to The Little Man. He'll lose it for you in about two minutes flat. He loses his sippy cup about 12 times a day. I could hand him his sippy as we are walking out the door, realize I forgot something in the kitchen, run back to get it, and when I return the cup will be gone.

I wish I was kidding.

It happens that fast.

He hasn't even left the room, and it has disappeared. We currently have a Diego sippy that has been MIA for over a month now. He lost it while in the toy room. I have turned that toy room upside down several times with no luck. Thankfully, it only had water in it.

8. Psalm 23:1 is his favorite verse right now. He says it over and over all day long. I am not sure why, but I guess it could be worse. There is no way you could get upset/annoyed with this, is there?

I Hope To Make it Two

I interrupt this unintentional bloggy break to wish this Blawg 'o Mine a Happy Birthday. I can't believe I started this blog a year ago not even thinking I would make it a month before getting bored or too busy. Needless to say, it's actually been difficult for me to NOT blog this past year. I love having this running record of the last twelve months. There are already things written in this blog that I have completely forgotten about, and am so glad I wrote it down.

Which was the whole purpose of this blog in the first place.

That, and it helps me to see life in a much more fun and refreshing way.

Now I must return to whatever has kept me from blogging since TUESDAY! I can't believe it's been that long. I've been busy with all kinds of nothing. The last two weeks have been a whirlwind of craziness like: book fairs, book fair treats, teaching art class at The Girl's school, our first Kindergarten conferences, gymnastics at a new gymnastics school, finishing up client sessions, Halloween (parties, pictures, and trick-or-treating), and movies. My, oh my, have we watched a TON of movies in the last 2 days including: Kung Fu Panda, Little Mermaid 1 and 3, Barbie as Rapunzel, Nim's Island, Made of Honor, and The Bucket List. Not to mention a bunch of TLC shows and a ton of Noggin.

My bottom actually hurts from sitting on it for the last 24 hours straight.

Probably not as much as The Girl's tummy which is what has caused us to have the movie/TV marathon in the first place.

My body will probably suffer from atrophy before we finish passing that yummy bug around to the rest of the house.

You've just gotta love Flu season.

T Minus 4 Hours and 15 Minutes

It's almost here! Freedom from the political craziness that has taken over our lives in every direction we turn.

I am thankful we live in a country were we have a voice, and are not living under any type of political oppression. I have done my duty as a citizen of this country, and I have talked with my children about this important responsibility.

I am also thankful that my name is on the roster to receive a mail-in ballot. Permanently. I did not have to stand in line, or go through the LONGEST ballot in our state's history while standing in a voting boot. Instead, I sat in my kitchen and ate cookies as I read through our ballot guide book, and felt no pressure to "hurry and make up my mind, already", and if I felt like I needed to read over something again and again to fully understand what I was reading, I did. No. Big. Deal.

Now, I wait for the freedom from political ads, emails, and phone calls. We have even had people come to the door. One sweet little guy (seriously, he was 12) even asked who we voted for when we told him we had already voted.

I am so excited to sit through an episode of The Office and not be tormented by political garbage. I never thought I would feel so full of joy at the thought of watching commercials for liquid dish soap. Alas, that day has come.

After today we will have a new President, new people in the Senate and Congress, and amendments made to our state's constitution. There will be all kinds of news coverage of how it all went down as well as analysis on every breath taken. That will be quickly followed up with the inauguration and the inaugural address. Then...more analysis.

February never sounded so good.

Are You Ever Too Old to do the "Potty Dance"?

I like to hit up Super T early in the morning if at all possible. There is ample up-front parking, no lines, and usually the shelves have just been freshly stocked. I can zoom in and zoom back out quickly, even if I do meander off course here and there.

This morning while shopping, I realized I had drank too much water and I needed to use the facilities. This isn't something I normally do.

I mean use public facilities, not the other.

So I tried to ignore the urge until I could get home. As I continued to walk along, there came a point in which I realized that the 20 ounce bottle of water was too much to hold onto, and there would be no more waiting. The Little Man and I made it quickly over to the public restrooms. At this point, I should mention, I think I was starting to realize that it may be possible that I was going to have an accident. I kept trying to distract myself with the thought of how clean the bathrooms should be seeing as though we had to be the first people of the day to use them.

The Little Man was giving some resistance to me. He wasn't moving quite as fast as I would have liked him to be, and I didn't want everyone around to see what a hurry I was in. It was starting to turn into quite the predicament as I felt my bladder muscles start to quiver under the pressure.

Finally, inside the restroom. I could just barely shuffle into the restroom and find a stall. Then I realized that I couldn't just leave The Little Man hanging out in the restroom while I was locked into a stall not watching him. I mean, HELLO we are in a public restroom, and he is a boy, and boys like to play. The thought of it all nearly gave me a heart attack. So I tell The Little Man, "Hey bud, come in here with me please. I need to be able to watch you."

He came back with a hefty, "No".

My bladder is about to burst, at this point I am literally sweating.

"Bud, don't argue with me, please come into the restroom with me NOW" I say, trying not to sound too desperate because I can't afford for him to realize he totally has the upper hand at this point.

"No."

"Yes, buddy. You have to come in here right now. You are not allowed to stay out here without a parent", I say as I pull on his arm and drag him into the stall.

As I drag him he whines the whole way, "Mommma! No, I don't have to go. I don't want to go in there with you!"

"Bud, will you hurry up and get in here. Mommy is going to have an accident if you don't help her out right now and get into this stall," I say as I finish pulling him into the stall. He continues to scream that he doesn't have to go, and he doesn't want to go into the potty room. Thankfully, I am stronger than he is so he doesn't have a choice in the matter. At this point I am past sweating, my bladder muscles are doing more than just trembling, and I am totally doing the "potty dance".

As a grown woman.

In a public restroom.

This is exactly how I envisioned myself, when I was a child, as an adult.

I quickly turn around and try to get my purse straps onto the hook thing on the inside of the door. Of course they are tangled, and I can't get them to hook right. Then I fiddle with the lock to make sure we stay nice and private. Trust me, when you are dancing the way I am at this point, you really don't want an audience.

As I turn around while working on my drawstring, I realize that I am going to need to beg from the bottom of my heart for my bladder to hold on for just a few more seconds. The Little Man must have decided that he DID need to go potty after all, and now he is all lined up.

I'm telling you, my bladder deserves an award today. You think it's hard to look at/think of running water when you have to go? Try helping someone actually go.

Sweating, people, I was sweating.

Halloween Highlights

This year Halloween was good to us. I don't remember a Halloween that had better weather.

Ever.

I felt like we could've scoured the neighborhood all night if we needed to, and never get uncomfortable. With the exception of our aching feet, of course. Besides the weather being down right gorgeous, the kids were the perfect age. They had so much fun it was just fun to watch.

This year, Hubby was home (as opposed to traveling for work), so he was determined to get in on the Trick-or-Treat action. He missed last year's neighborhood romp, and was still sad about that. It was the year The Little Man really figured out what Trick-or-Treating was all about, and was so giddy about getting candy from every house that he could barely get himself under control. He had to hear all about it via telephone call later that evening. I too did not want to miss out on the fun. I mean, how often are your kids going to be in the age range where Halloween is close to the best thing that has ever happened to them? Not many years. I want to soak each one of those years up.

Well, as long as the weather is as nice as it was last night.

If it is snowing/raining, I can soak that goodness up right from the comfort of my own home. Thankyouverymuch.

So, with the both of us Trick-or-Treating with the kids, that left our home unmanned for our own candy give away. We both thought of this slight detail as, well, just that, slight. We figured, even though we promised the kids we were going to go to every house in our little neighborhood portion of the subdivision, that we would be home in about a half hour, maybe 45 minutes TOPS.

As you can guess, considering the fact that our children are ages five and three, we spent much more time Trick-or-Treating than we had estimated. Which made the fact that I had spent a little over $20 on candy sting that much more when we only had about eight Trick-or-Treat-ers come by after our, almost all night, adventure.

So to say we have a lot of candy, when you combine hitting up the neighborhood along with $20 in candy of our own, is a GROSS understatement.

Hubby keeps mumbling that this slight detail is what might push him right over the edge into chubby-ville.

Oh ya, and don't forget that we had to weed through the kids candy for any and all candy made with peanuts or chocolate (did you know that pretty much all candy with chocolate in it is NOT peanut free?). That left them with about 40% of their loot. The other 60%, is in a bag in our pantry, and it is like money burning a hole in our pockets. So, the running mileage will have to increase starting tomorrow and continue through the holiday season.

Regardless of all the caloric intake going on in this house, we had a great time together as a family. Here are a few highlights of the night that I will remember from Halloween '08:

1. How cute the kids were in their costumes.

2. The Little Man telling us after every house that "Those people gave me candy!"

3. The Girl reading every little sign that people had used to decorate their homes with, and then taking them seriously. For example if someone had a sign in a flower bed that said "Turn Back Now!" she would look at me and say, "Uh-oh momma! That sign says we should go back! I wonder if we should, or if we should just ring the door bell anyways?

4. After going to a house where a real live person was sitting on a bench on the porch looking like a pretend scare crow proceeded to scare us by moving as we walked by, the kids thought it would be fun to do that to the person who answered the door at the next house. After they rang the door bell, they both froze in crazy poses, and then when the person came to the door and greeted them, they both jumped and said "BOO!" to the greeter. The person answering the door totally didn't get it, and the kids just laughed and laughed as though they had pulled off the biggest prank in the world. Hubby and I laughed to, but for different reasons.

5. The Little Man sang to us as we went from house to house. The song of choice? Tobymac, Kurt Franklin, and Mandeesa's "Lose My Soul". Hubby and I thought it was fitting.

And last, but certainly not least,
6. The Little Man going up to a house and instead of saying "Trick-or-Treat", he had already decided what he really wanted, and just flat out asked for it. He asked the homeowner if he could have some Nerds because those were his favorite candy. Surprisingly, they were giving Nerds away which only made things worse because then he said, "Well, I better get two boxes then because I just love them." I, unfortunately, had to show my face to the homeowner and retrieve my son from their porch when he tried to fill his bag with Nerds.

Good times.

Next year, Hubby says he will stay home and pass out candy. I told him it was too much fun going with him. We're working on a compromise, and eating Snickers bars, like they are going out of style, in the meantime.